That Warm Feeling

05-04-2025

I'm bonding with my newborn baby as I hold her on my chest. She is soft and light and surprisingly quiet. The pattern of a knitted blanket draped over the chair I'm sitting on has captured her interest and she's looking closely at it. I'm enjoying the bonding moment. I feel warmth. "Ahh, this is what it feels like to be a parent". The warm feeling grows. "Ahh, this is pure love isn't it?". The warmth continues to grow and gets warmer. I'm brought back to reality as I've experienced this before. I feel my chest with my hand and sure enough it's wet. Baby has peed on me. I lift baby up in front of me. The stain on her lower area is not just clear but it's brownish. That's right, not just pee but runny poop as well. You'd think I'd be used to this by now but it still surprises me every single time.